You know the people who, after they've passed on, have left drawers of paper clips/bags/twist ties/etc. and everyone smiles about how they really couldn't part with anything? That's me. The grandmothers who refuse to use the "good" anything, who leave mugs/cups/clothes/jewellry completely unused for the next generation? That's me as well. What's my point? It stops today.
I have been blessed with a very generous circle of friends and family. As a result, I have stashes upon stashes of really great art and craft supplies. Why have I not used them? Well, that's a tough question, and one that I suppose a therapist might be better able to answer. I assume it's twofold: I am afraid that I will need it for something else later, and I am unsure of my own vision (what if it turns out to be garbage and I've wasted it?). In short - my self-esteem has not allowed me the freedom to use these wonderful gifts. That is unacceptable.
I was going to use a random photo of a pile of fabric to illustrate this post. Instead, this is my fabric closet. If I am going to be honest, I will start here.
Not exactly the biggest stash ever, but there is a lot of nice stuff hidden in there. My resolution? I am going to use my stashes. I am going to pull out the good stuff, the precious, the things that make me nervous, and I am going to use them. I am giving myself permission to use things to experiment, to play, and to grow. That makes me nervous; I think nervous mught be good.
Twillick Designs - a life of exploration
Tuesday
Monday
Hmm - refocus...
Ok. I started with the best of intentions, I swear I did. To be honest, I don't even consider this a fail. I've learned some very valuable things about how I work this week. One, small, rushed thing every day is unsatifying for me. The way I work, it doesn't lend itself to this, I often have more than one thing in development and I like to have some time to consider what I am doing. A completion per day is just not good for me. I may go a week without one thing complete, then finish 5 in one day. So - new rules. At least one completion, blogged and photographed, per week. Sometimes it may be more, but no less. Flexible, yeah - I can do that.
Thursday
Tuesday
First day - complete
A fly! I'm not sure if it will be 365 bugs, or 365 embroidery, or what exactly - but for now, I am going to be happy that the first day is a success. :)
Studio Practice
Studio practice just doesn't come naturally to me, I have a million ideas and they don't get exercised (or exorcised). I truly admire people who can put their heads down and just go, I wish I had that tenacity. Will this actually change my practice? Lord, I hope so! Let's see where this year leads...
Wednesday
One down, one to go
This is the invitation for the most recent show, I was absolutely blessed to be asked to participate in this one. It really stretched my comfort zone and gave me chance to work on some new techniques that I needed a good push to do. The work has returned, and will be shown here next year. Although I don't have the time to devote to my work that I would like (24/7? Yes, please!) I am slowly figuring out how to keep on keeping on.
Tuesday
A show invitation, how exciting!
I received notice that a group show I'm involved with is a go. This is very exciting for me, it provides several different opportunities at once - not to mention the fact that it has jump-started my flagging creativity (thankfully!) Now - research, research, research...
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