I have been blessed with a very generous circle of friends and family. As a result, I have stashes upon stashes of really great art and craft supplies. Why have I not used them? Well, that's a tough question, and one that I suppose a therapist might be better able to answer. I assume it's twofold: I am afraid that I will need it for something else later, and I am unsure of my own vision (what if it turns out to be garbage and I've wasted it?). In short - my self-esteem has not allowed me the freedom to use these wonderful gifts. That is unacceptable.
I was going to use a random photo of a pile of fabric to illustrate this post. Instead, this is my fabric closet. If I am going to be honest, I will start here.
Not exactly the biggest stash ever, but there is a lot of nice stuff hidden in there. My resolution? I am going to use my stashes. I am going to pull out the good stuff, the precious, the things that make me nervous, and I am going to use them. I am giving myself permission to use things to experiment, to play, and to grow. That makes me nervous; I think nervous mught be good.
